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It’s my 22nd bday and I finally have come to the realization that I’m...

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 12:40:55 -0400

It’s my 22nd bday and I finally have come to the realization that I’m mentally/emotionally sick. These thoughts and actions that I do to myself is not good. I’m not sure what started this but now that i look back, this has been going on for a long while. I used to pull my eyelashes when i couldn’t handle things. I’ve never gotten my eyebrows waxed; I do them myself, I know they suck most of the time but the fact that I can control that makes me feel better for some reason. When I first got to college I got two piercing because I was so frustrated, upset, hurt, and angry with my ex and that seemed like a good thing to get my mind off of it. Now, I don’t have a reason to justify my actions except that I can control it and it takes my mind off of things.

I’m still trying to figure out what triggers me to do this. Part of it is school/pressure, part of it is the fact that the people that mean the most to me can’t get along. It sucks but it comes in waves. Sometimes i can control it to where i don’t lash out then there are times where i feel like i’m going to break, and can’t do anything.

I need to start writing again. Maybe this will help.

chanelroze: ♡♡♡

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 12:07:21 -0400

chanelroze:

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Mon, 10 Jun 2013 01:51:03 -0400

hahaha this is for matt!

Mon, 03 Jun 2013 15:35:11 -0400

hahaha this is for matt!

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Mon, 03 Jun 2013 00:42:58 -0400

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Mon, 03 Jun 2013 00:41:30 -0400

eatcleanmakechanges: work to change this about yourself……

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 13:54:59 -0400

eatcleanmakechanges:

work to change this about yourself……

I guess it's just me being an introvert.

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 05:51:50 -0400

But the idea of going out and partying sounds soo….lame, dumb, over-ratted. Sorry but going out with the purpose of getting drunk is stupid in my opinion. The hangover last hell of a lot longer than the high of being drunk. Plus, shit usually happens; lose your phone/wallet/keys, make horrible mistakes, text people you shouldn’t, etc. I don’t know, i’ve never been one for partying a lot, maybe that’s why but i’m just looking at what everyone posts after a night out and in my opinion they look.sad. idk but thats just my opinion. I guess it’s the introvert in me .

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Sun, 02 Jun 2013 00:30:38 -0400

lovequotesrus: EVERYTHING LOVE

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 00:19:31 -0400

lovequotesrus:

EVERYTHING LOVE

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Sun, 02 Jun 2013 00:19:06 -0400

t4nbow: keep-it-swavey: words-and-reality: Click here for...

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 00:18:13 -0400

t4nbow:

keep-it-swavey:

words-and-reality:

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Awh this is true ❤👌

"25 Things To Do Before You Turn 25 1. Make peace with your parents. Whether you finally recognize..."

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 00:17:24 -0400

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25 Things To Do Before You Turn 25

1. Make peace with your parents. Whether you finally recognize that they actually have your best interests in mind or you forgive them for being flawed human beings, you can’t happily enter adulthood with that familial brand of resentment.

2. Kiss someone you think is out of your league; kiss models and med students and entrepreneurs with part-time lives in Dubai and don’t worry about if they’re going to call you afterward.

3. Minimize your passivity.

4. Work a service job to gain some understanding of how tipping works, how to keep your cool around assholes, how a few kind words can change someone’s day.

5. Recognize freedom as a 5:30 a.m. trip to the diner with a bunch of strangers you’ve just met.

6. Try not to beat yourself up over having obtained a ‘useless’ Bachelor’s Degree. Debt is hell, and things didn’t pan out quite like you expected, but you did get to go to college, and having a degree isn’t the worst thing in the world to have. We will figure this mess out, I think, probably; the point is you’re not worth less just because there hasn’t been an immediate pay off for going to school. Be patient, work with what you have, and remember that a lot of us are in this together.

7. If you’re employed in any capacity, open a savings account. You never know when you might be unemployed or in desperate need of getting away for a few days. Even $10 a week is $520 more a year than you would’ve had otherwise.

8. Make a habit of going outside, enjoying the light, relearning your friends, forgetting the internet.

9. Go on a 4-day, brunch-fueled bender.

10. Start a relationship with your crush by telling them that you want them. Directly. Like, look them in the face and say it to them. Say, I want you. I want to be with you.

11. Learn to say ‘no’ — to yourself. Don’t keep wearing high heels if you hate them; don’t keep smoking if you’re disgusted by the way you smell the morning after; stop wasting entire days on your couch if you’re going to complain about missing the sun.

12. Take time to revisit the places that made you who you are: the apartment you grew up in, your middle school, your hometown. These places may or may not be here forever; you definitely won’t be.

13. Find a hobby that makes being alone feel lovely and empowering and like something to look forward to.

14. Think you know yourself until you meet someone better than you.

15. Forget who you are, what your priorities are, and how a person should be.

16. Identify your fears and instead of letting them dictate your every move, find and talk to people who have overcome them. Don’t settle for experiencing .000002% of what the world has to offer because you’re afraid of getting on a plane.

17. Make a habit of cleaning up and letting go. Just because it fit at one point doesn’t mean you need to keep it forever — whether ‘it’ is your favorite pair of pants or your ex.

18. Stop hating yourself.

19. Go out and watch that movie, read that book, listen to that band you already lied about watching, reading, listening to.

20. Take advantage of health insurance while you have it.

21. Make a habit of telling people how you feel, whether it means writing a gushing fan-girl email to someone whose work you love or telling your boss why you deserve a raise.

22. Date someone who says, “I love you” first.

23. Leave the country under the premise of “finding yourself.” This will be unsuccessful. Places do not change people. Instead, do a lot of solo drinking, read a lot of books, have sex in dirty hostels, and come home when you start to miss it.

24. Suck it up and buy a Macbook Pro.

25. Quit that job that’s making you miserable, end the relationship that makes you act like a lunatic, lose the friend whose sole purpose in life is making you feel like you’re perpetually on the verge of vomiting. You’re young, you’re resilient, there are other jobs and relationships and friends if you’re patient and open.

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- January Nelson, 06/25/12 (via pale-afternoon)

hardcorinq: austincarl1le: This actually made me cry, holy...

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 00:11:57 -0400

hardcorinq:

austincarl1le:

This actually made me cry, holy fuck.

WOW

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Sat, 01 Jun 2013 00:08:33 -0400

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Fri, 31 May 2013 14:41:30 -0400

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My Towel Wave merchandise arrived!!!

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Thu, 30 May 2013 13:36:53 -0400

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Thu, 30 May 2013 00:47:23 -0400

This isn’t a joking matter. This is not something you can make fun up at your expense. This is...

Thu, 30 May 2013 00:04:42 -0400

This isn’t a joking matter. This is not something you can make fun up at your expense. This is something i’m going through and it hurts and it sucks.

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Wed, 29 May 2013 03:07:31 -0400